how to save a life...

     just discovered the fray. i like them. so it's been a while. first day of autumn isn't until saturday, but i was excited and needed something to do while procrastinating. i've become very efficient at that. i was going to have leaves falling like i have the snow in winter, but the images were messing up. i might mess with it later. i really like the xanga audio stuff, except it needs to have a cleaner interface. dunno. any song requests?

     so i officially failed my first test this year. yeah. apparently 50% of the class did. i thought i did a dang good job on that exam, explaining how the passage related to the rest of the poem (it was passage identification on a poetry test), identifying the formal conventions, themes, and even the type of poem, then giving my own interpretation of it. apparently that wasn't enough. she even wrote a note in the margin of my blue book, "again, you fail to address crucial imagery: why the rhyme of "brain" and "chain" for example. these are correct statements but you haven't addressed the exam at all." yeah, the instructions on the exam were, "identify the poem and poet, giving as detailed an analysis as time permits, indicating structural and thematic elements. avoid paraphrase, but incorporate the larger aims of the poem," which is exactly what i did. so because i didn't explain why "brain" and "chain" rhymed, i failed. i seriously hate my major sometimes. then we've been discussing in my capstone class what you can do with an english major. one example from a pamphlet was, "well, i took some time off and traveled the country and had a real growth experience." another was, "well, i work at a pizza parlor now, but i write on the side." i swear i'm going to kill myself.

     so things have been up and down, as usual. lots of work, which has been rather overwhelming, and i've been emotional as a pregnant woman (no offense). it's sucked, really. i'm being constantly reminded that i don't fit in, but i have a good friend that's been keeping me somewhat grounded and who has been kind enough to lend me a shoulder and put up with my craziness. something feels different today, though. a change in the wind, maybe. the weather has been awesome, by the way. i love it when it cools down like this. i woke up with a sore throat this morning, though, because i left my window open all night. i love fall.

     so my new quote is a little trite. i like it, though. if you knew that today was your last day on earth, what would you do? i really take it for granted that i'll have another fifty some years to get things done, when i might not even have a day. time to get started, i guess. anyway, homework to do. later.