a block of wood...
it's kinda funny how much time i've spent writing over the last few weeks compared with how much i have to show for it. yeah, not much. kinda got carried away with one particular story that i have very little business writing. haha. getting kinda stuck with it. getting kinda stuck in general, wondering if this is what i should be doing, actually. i want it very much, but when it comes to it, i don't know if i have the talent for it. there's no sparkle. ever seen mr. magorium's wonder emporium? i love that movie. well, i'm the block of wood, stuck in the middle of my composition. writing's a tough business. creativity is tough. first of all, it's hard coming up with something from nothing, but then the chances of that nothing being something that hasn't been done a million times over are slim. i know, i'm being so eloquent right now, aren't i? yes, i'm being facetious. i think it'd be a little easier if i had a job or other source of income so i'm not worried so much about that. i'm still looking. and, yes, i'm very well aware of the fact that i quit my job to write, so there's no need to remind me. i'm not sorry that i did. just getting antsy. and frustrated that the block of wood might turn out to be just a block of wood after all.
there isn't a whole lot else going on at the moment. the semester is almost over, so the house will soon be quiet. i'm trying to convince myself that that will be a good thing, but i will definitely miss having people around. my little brother will be here for about a month, but then he'll be going off to get married. that will be interesting. i don't think i've talked much about that on here. no, it doesn't really bother me (everyone keeps asking me that). i'm not jealous. sure, i wonder if i'm going to end up dying alone, but i wondered that before his engagement. 
i don't think i'm the only one who wonders that about me. but i'm not there yet. oh, i did enroll for an online course at the university. should be fun. this will be the last requirement for that degree that has now taken me seven years to complete. haha. or it will be seven years at the end of summer. seven's a good number. then i'll have a piece of paper saying that i can write. haha. or at least one that says i could write well enough to graduate from some college in the middle of nowhere. should come with some pretty high prestige there.
i have been cooking a lot. made some awesome cookies the other day. two kinds. one was peanut butter, which is always yummy. the other was something new--an almond and cranberry puree rolled up in a heavy sugar-cookie dough with orange zest, so it kinda looks like a pinwheel when you cut out the cookies. they were so good. don't keep long, though. then tonight i covered snacks for our youth group (i hardly belong there anymore) with popcorn with light butter infused with rosemary, apples with caramel from scratch, and oreos. not bad. i also recently purchased an ice-cream maker attachment for my kitchenaid mixer, so i've made some good ice-creams, too. coffee and mint-chip have been my favorite so far. and no, i'm not eating much of it. i've actually lost weight since i quit the candy factory. haha.
well, i'm feeling like i should go read. i was surprised that jyoseph stopped by and said hello. i wonder how many of you remember him, from xanga's glory days before myspace and facebook. he was probably even bigger than the theologian back then. he and his wife recently had a baby boy, so you should go congratulate him at www.jyoseph.com. he's a cool guy.
later, taters.