i just did something extremely irresponsible...

       so i've been having a blah week. one of my best friends, greg, is in the hospital again. a few years ago his appendix burst and a couple years ago he found out he had crohn's disease. i found out last thursday that within the last few weeks he's been in and out of hospitals again and he even made an emergency trip to the mayo clinic. tuesday or wednesday he had surgery in new york and we still haven't been able to get word of how all of that went. so i've been really worried about him. also having some other not fun things happening that i don't want to talk about. so basically it's been a pretty blah week.
 
       yes, i'm using these as excuses.

       i'm a pretty impulsive person, but i've wanted one of these very, very badly for a very, very long time. no, i would never be able to afford one. i work part-time for minimum wage and that rarely covers the bills. it's not a great thing to admit to the world, but i'm horrible with money. i love amazon.com. and i love books. and my tax return was a little larger than i was expecting. and i've wanted one for a very, very long time. and i love books. and i've been having a blah week and wanted to treat myself. and this one looks so much better than the last. and i ran into a random blog that had a review of it and i took it as a sign from god. or something like that. ok, not really. but i wanted one. i got second-day shipping because i'm excited and i'm already dropping $400 on it, but on tuesday i will be receiving one of these:

       i'm excited.