a natural disaster...

       a lot has been happening, yes, but i just haven't had all that much to say. not a lot has changed in my emotional state since my last post of early july, which was quickly set to private, but i suppose there have been some moves to make changes. i guess we'll see if anything happens there. otherwise i've been trying to meet people, which is exhausting. i have a feeling many of them will turn out to be single-serving friends. and many of my old friends seem to be... moving on. aided, i'm sure, by my stellar communication skills. meantime i've discovered that i don't have to be alone if i don't want to be. but in the end i usually wind up feeling more so. like tonight. the more people i meet the more convinced i become that i will end up alone. and my proclivity for ice cream sandwiches when in such a mood just about guarantees that. at least hermes loves me still.

       i got to play piano a bit for the first time since being here. i was at a small party of sorts with some new friends and someone blabbed to the host couple that i played. so they made me sit and play. i was pretty drunk by that point and couldn't remember half of the notes, but it still felt good. i miss it terribly. also went to a club for the first time since being here, later that night. hadn't planned on going but one of the guys wanted to go out and he needed a chaperone. i reluctantly agreed. it was all right, but it kinda heightened my loneliness for some reason.

       oh, and for my birthday we had an earthquake and a hurricane. both were underwhelming.

       k, i'm going back to my reading now.