at least i won't have to work tomorrow...

       send happy thoughts. please. i was in a bad car accident on the way home from work tonight. head on. i'm ok. i think. but i'm really sore. i feel like a big bruise. my car is dead, though. i'm sure it'll be totaled. good ol' daisy. just had the oil changed too. synthetic. great gas mileage. $30 to fill up the tank, once a week, and it's just shy of 30 miles one way to work. i don't really remember the accident very well. i was turning left and i thought i had a green arrow. i was just following the guy in front of me. then all of a sudden i was being plowed across the highway. apparently it wasn't an arrow. i was about 20 minutes from raleigh, but a friend came and brought me home. took some ibuprofen. took a hot bath. about to go to bed. tomorrow the insurance adjustor will call to tell me how much shit i'm in. after a bath and a shower (i washed my hair twice) i can still smell that nasty airbag smell and it's making me sick. i want to go to sleep and dream about being someone else.

       when the cop asked me if i had someone to call to come get me i almost started crying. all the people i could think of were thousands of miles away. it was a little awkward with the friend who came. i wasn't sure that i could ask him for that favor.

       i want to go home. but i don't know where that is.