apparently my camera phone picks up infrared. that's kinda cool...

       so i just realized that i'm a little bit drunk. perfect time to post! :) don't worry, it's not a wallowing sort of drunk, just a quiet saturday night watching tv and cuddling with the kitten sort of drunk. coke and vanilla vodka. i'm not even through my first glass yet. granted, i'm not so drunk that i can't type. but i am using the backspace a lot.

       still loving having my own space. i find that i can have so many more quality conversations with myself. and i had some fun with my first painting experiment. nothing amazing, but they're mine and i kinda like them:

(click for the larger yet still camera phone quality version)

       i went to the library today to write. i was there for at least three hours and all i did was chat with garett and buy some overpriced dried apricots from today's amazon local deal. i dunno, peeps. starting to feel like i'll be an office bitch in north carolina forever. *shudder* all i've wanted to be was a writer or a musician. the music career didn't quite pan out and it's starting to feel like the other won't either. so what am i now?

       i'm loving the spring rains. not loving the allergies. those are new to me. i think the pollen here was genetically engineered to be fucking annoying. but i've always been a water person. i love the sound. i love showers. it's kinda funny considering my astrological elements (depending which calendar you subscribe to) are earth (virgo) and fire (leo). but i guess i love all four. hence the paintings. partly also my love of harry potter. yup, i went there.

       otherwise not much going on. i work and i read and i try to forget all the dreams i had for myself. hmm. sounds like it's time for bed. ninight!