amazon.com will rule the world...

       so i just got an email to inform me that my favorite t-shirt company, woot.com, is being acquired by my favorite everything company, amazon.com. now i've always loved amazon, but that love became the forever and ever amen kind of love when they bought the seventh hand-made copy of the tales of beedle the bard, sending nearly $4 million to jo's charity. and it became the i wanna have your babies kinda love when they came out with my beloved kindle. but i swear, one day amazon and google will rule the world. i can see them skipping together, hand in hand in a meadow with wildflowers and butterflies and maybe even a sparkly vampire.

       but for serious. they already own zappos and audible ( ) and imdb and cdnow and lots of others. and now woot!

       i love amazon. i got an email from them today, actually, telling me that they shipped one of my subscribe and save items. i love that feature. even cheaper than walmart.

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day 23. write a love letter to yourself.

dear yourself:

       i don't know who you are. i was just told to write a love letter to you. so. i love you.

       oh. doesn't count? hm. take two. dear self:

       it was fun sleeping in with you today. it was especially nice when hermes jumped in bed just before eight and snuggled with us for a bit before the alarm went off. the cat can love you, so you must not be entirely unlovable. you are better than i think, though. i know i put you down way too much, and i'm sorry for that. i give you a ton of crap about your body, but we've been working on that and have been making a lot of really good progress, even if we have been slipping a little since living with your parents. but we can get back in the groove again. it'll take some time, but we'll get there. and i know it's been really tough being back home -- i know you're feeling like you don't have much of a future, but it's not true. i really do believe that you could go places if you apply yourself. we need to work on that one, too. but i have confidence in you. i know we don't get along all the time -- we fight a lot and we get over emotional and sometimes we just detest one another, but i want you to know that i'm in it for the long haul. even if you are crazy. and we have some amazing friends, too. so keep writing. you can be good at that sometimes, even if you do write horrible love letters. just steer clear of romance novels. but you can definitely go for the models that pose for the covers. and don't worry so much about finding mr. right. even if he never comes along, we'll always have each other. and amazon, along with it's new acquisition of woot.com. so, be well, self. take care of yourself. and i'm sure, deep, deep, very deep down inside, i do love you.

sincerely,
me

but if not...

       i'm seriously sorry about that last entry. it was total bunk. haha. i can say that now because i was already paid the $5 to put it up and, as many of you know, i'm currently short a job so i took it. well, that's not really an excuse because that five dollars was paid in amazon.com gift certificates and went towards mario kart wii. i'm in love with the wii. (yeah, dave, i no longer need friends, either, just for that reason. ) i'm part of amazon's mechanical turk team of artificial artificial intelligence, which is pretty much a legal sweat shop, but it sounds almost kinda cool and it's fun and i put all my earnings (which now total a little less than $20 over a few months) towards toys. you should check it out if you have nothing better to do.

       so with my last real post, i received some rather good advice from dave and matt to not force the creativity. i'm not being facetious, it totally rocked. the weird thing is, i haven't written a dang thing since, but at the same time i've had more ideas running through my head than i can keep up with. the tricky part is trying to pick out the ones that won't shrivel up and die if they ever see daylight. the scary thing is that i think i've realized what this little fairy tale i've been writing for three years now needs. 80 pages written so far, and i don't think i can keep any of them, entirely. and the hard part is that these ideas often come in little incomplete clips and phrases, not even with characters, but ideas that i want to get across in the telling. but i've been reading a lot and keeping netflix busy with turnarounds. latest read was the alchemist by paulo coelho. it's similar to the little prince, which is one of my favorites, and it's about finding and pursuing your "personal legend." in other words, it gives you an excuse to dream. highly recommended. i've also been re-re-re-re-re-reading harry potter. and i'm falling in love with shakespeare again. next on the list is ian mcewan's atonement. i cheated and watched the movie first, but it was good. and i love the story of dunkirk. "but if not." that wasn't in the film, but i can't imagine that he would use dunkirk without thinking about that. (if you're not familiar with the story, go here and read about it. seriously, it's pretty cool.) i've been thinking about that, though. but if not. haha. there's a lot of bravery in those words, maybe even a lot of faith. i want to write, but if not... man, i'm not even sure how to finish that. i don't want there to be alternatives. that requires a lot of trust. God has been making me do loop-de-loops recently, but that's a post for another time. that's going to be a long one, too. coming soon. mwa ha ha.

       so i'm thinking about a masters in journalism. this coming from someone who has professed his hatred of journalistic writing for the last seven years (and gotten into some trouble for it). this should be interesting. anyway, i hope you all are having a wonderful weekend and out with friends instead of surfing the web on a friday evening/saturday morning. more later. take it easy.

<edit> disclaimer on that article link: i just googled "but not if" and that was the first relevant result. i'm only drawing your attention to the relevant first part of that post and am not commenting on or trying to state an opinion in regards to the remainder. </edit>